Is it just an alternative?

Rejections? I’ve got many. Those rejections aren’t so significant so much, because I’ve been rejected by just those not so significant people.

Before proceeding, let me just tell a short story of mine first. Just like any other ordinary young people, I have my own close friends, they’re seven. We enjoyed everyone’s company, but one thing that makes it feels so incomplete, one of my close friends isn’t always around and made us feel her presence. I mean, there’s no presence at all! I met my close friends at college, and it’s been 3 years since I entered my college. Approximately, only 15% of those 3 years of having them is spent with her. As her friend, we could always understand if she doesn’t have the time to be with us. From time to time, we keep on asking her if she could hang out with us, and whenever she utters her famous “Sorry, I have something to do”, we just try not to stand in her way.

It just feels like there’s nothing more left, but knowing that she’s not with us. It doesn’t seem so complete. We never felt lonely, but we just keep on wondering how it feels if she’s with us.

On my third year of having them, and on our second year of being together – confused? Let me explain it first, I knew them since my first year on college, it’s just been official on the last month of my first year, since it’s been official we just called it ‘Unknown’, because we can’t come up with a name and just decided to call it that name. As I’m saying, on my third year of having them, she’s been with her new friends. Her new friends are our friend too, what’s worst they have their name to call themselves just like us. If you knew me personally, I’m sure you know what I’m talking about, but if not I won’t tell you’re their name, exposure of their group name won’t matter anyway.

We tried to confront her, but it always ends up with just an ordinary conversation. She tells that she’s still a part of us (of unknown), and it’s just an additional friend. What!? I thought she’s just in lack of time that’s why she can’t be with us, and if she doesn’t have much time how could she manage to deal with so many friends?

Back to ‘rejections’, we just asked her if she could join us on an activity that we’ve just set-up. She told us she couldn’t do it; if there will be a conflict with an activity with her ‘new friend’. In other terms, we just received a rejection. She’s not that significant to make us so disappointed, but it’s not an ordinary situation. As of now, we just have plans on how to deal with it. My apologies if I can’t share that plan with my readers, because this is a weblogs in which anybody can read it, who knows she might also reading.